Forgiveness

For me, it takes a LOT to get me upset and to really not like you.
I have learned a lot this past year.
As I reflect on 2013, I think about some relationships that I have had.
I realized that I may have outgrown some people for a reason.
The reason can sometimes be unknown, but it was for a reason.
Rather it be a good one or a bad one, they are no longer apart of my everyday life.

And thats cool.

I do believe that God wants us to forgive people because he loves us all no matter what we do.
I forgive people and I let things go, but I don't forget.
Then I think about it, does God still forgives us and remember what we did in the past or does it even matter?

Well, going into 2014, I want to be able to forgive and let go. Forget, Idk lmao but maybe I should.
One particular friendship that I had was tarnished due to jealousy and just being stupid with words and I feel like it sucks that their true colors came out.

I think for me, I forgave them and I have let it go but I just don't like what happened.
I guess it still bothers me that the person turned out to be someone that I didn't know.

But its okay to be hurt right? Is there a specific time when you should be over the hurt?

Idk. I am sure still going to pray on it and reflect.

I'm happy it happened though because I am starting to see who actually cares about me and are interested in my well being. 
I hate when people try to take advantage of you and just treat you like crap.

So, in conclusion to the New Year, I will forgive people. 
I will never stop but I will let go of pettiness.
I am not a fake person, so when I ask about your well being, I'm being genuine.
I wont stop being genuine and just be me.
Either you are going to like me or not, either way, it is what it is.

So Happy New Year, a year of fun, laughter, happy cries, and soo much to learn for the better years to come!

Faith

Its been a week.

No, maybe a year.

I have gone through so many ups and downs, its not even funny.
But one thing I do know is, that I pray all day, everyday.

My faith has grown from that little mustard seed into a gigantic watermelon.
I do believe that everything will be okay.
That everything that has happened thus far is for a good reason.

God makes no mistakes.

I trust him and I know that everything will be alrite, because it will be!

When you step out on your faith, you know that everything will get better in due time.
I just have to keep remembering that it is God's timing and not my timing.

But I wont stop at what I need to do. I have to help God by showing him what I want to accomplish or the things that I need so that he can make a way for me.

Or tell me, I want this for you because its better.

Down my lovely journey I go.

And oh I do have my days of frustration or just emptiness because I don't know what will happen.
But then I reach back out to my bff, and I know that everything will be alrite.

Because it is, it is always okay.

Even when I think its not going to happen, it happens.
He can do anything, and I believe that in due time, my blessings will grow into something bigger than I could ever imagine!

For now, I am where I need to be.
I don't need to explain that to anyone because God can say it better than me.

I need to continue to do what's best for me.

When the time comes, I will be at my next stop.

But for now, I am where I am and I'm happy knowing that something is in store for me.
I just have to remain patient and keep on holding on to my faith.

It's strong.
It's big.
And it will continue to live on.

I thank God for everything and all that I will see later on in my journey.

Paying Respect. Nelson Mandela.

The year is almost over and I feel like its been a year for REAL.
We have lost so many great people in the world for a reason. I strongly believe that God makes us great and he only takes the great people to eternal life.

Nelson Mandela, was a great man and his legacy will live on and on.
I will make sure my future children know who he was and what he did.

It saddens me sometimes when people think they know what they are talking about, and don't.
I spoke with a man the other day and he said Nelson Mandela was the President of Nigeria. I looked at him and was like, hmmm, I'm gonna need for you to know your history.

Bless his heart.

Here is a little information on this lovely man via History.com :

The South African activist and former president Nelson Mandela, helped bring an end to apartheid and has been a global advocate for human rights.

A member of the African National Congress party beginning in the 1940s, he was a leader of both peaceful protests and armed resistance against the white minority's oppressive regime in a racially divided South Africa.

His actions landed him in prison for nearly three decades and made him the face of the anti-apartheid movement both within his country and internationally.

Released in 1990, he participated in the eradication of apartheid and in 1994 became the first black president of South Africa, forming a multiethnic government to oversee the country's transition.

After retiring from politics in 1999, he remained a devoted champion for peace and social justice in his own nation and around the world until his death in 2013 at the age of 95.


Rest in Peace, Nelson Mandela, you deserve it for all that you did and we thank you for it.

If you're going to fight, fight for a cause, not for ignorance!